Lucky you if you've never experienced a toxic relationship. You don't need to get trapped in confusion whether or not you should stay. It is exhausting and wasting time, at least for me.
A toxic relationship may be caused by several reasons. It's either your partner or you who are toxic for each other.
If you are with a toxic person, no matter what you do may feel so wrong.
You question your own worth because there is nothing you've done seem right for him/her.
He/she doesn't treat you the way you should be treated. You feel emotionally abused.
Some people may not realize that they are toxic people, or maybe even me myself.
But if you feel that you already try your best to make your partner happy and be available for him/her, avoid anything that can possibly create misunderstanding, yet he/she still, take you for granted, then I wish you know it already that it is one of the reasons why you should ask yourself whether he/she is worth fighting for.
Many people tell their love stories to me. I immediately ask them to move on from those who hurt them and said: "there are many better ones." But when it comes to me, it's easy to say then get it done. Once I was with someone who I've thought was perfect, and for me he still is (you can see that I'm still blinded with my love for him). I loved him until I felt there's no one else in this world that could replace him. But the fact, my relationship didn't go too well. I suffered to ask for his love and attention, yet at the same time, I didn't have the right to be upset because he wouldn't care either if I was gone. There were many other reasons in which I couldn't elaborate. The point is, we loved each other very much (well, at least that's what he said a lot to me). Now I realized, love is not enough. There's no one to blame though. I couldn't make him feel my love, and he couldn't make me stay no matter how many times he said he loved me. It's just; basically, we were not meant for each other.
I've heard this quite often, "the right person will come at the right time," and "a good man may not be the right man for you."
Now I've stopped blaming myself that I couldn't make this relationship work.
I've stopped questioning my own value by asking "why he treated me like this?"
I've stopped thinking that it was his fault because he was this and that.
I've accepted it.
I'm writing this now at 1.41 AM after getting blocked by someone who mattered to me, and he said he's out of my life.
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